"I am standing outside the door to Rick’s office. I take a deep breath and feel confident that I am strong enough to do whatever it is that he asks me to do. I open the door and am shocked to see the stranger sitting there. I am starting to shake and sweat. Rick asks me to sit down by my rapist."
Excerpt from Do You See Me?
Rick Holland, his two sons and Al Mohler at James P. Boyce's grave (Tweet by Al Mohler)
Last week we shared the heartbreaking story of 'Jane', who was a student at The Master's College (now University) where John MacArthur serves as president. She describes the horrific experience of being raped by the friend of some students at The Master's Seminary that she knew. Here is the link to that post:
An 'authority' who figures prominently in Jane's testimony is Rick Holland, who at the time was the College Pastor at Grace Community Church, which is affiliated with both The Master's University and The Master's Seminary. Here is the relevant part of her account involving Rick (see excerpt from our TWW post cited above).
My head is starting to clear now. I know I’ve been raped…
Jane finally made it back to her dorm room, and her head started to clear. She went to the police, and they did a rape kit and questioned her. Then, she returned home to be with her family and the school told her she could return and they would help her with counseling. She was told to meet with Rick Holland, who was the college pastor at John MacArthur's church, which is affiliated with TMC and TMS. Rick interrogated her and asked some very inappropriate questions, such as:
Where did he touch you? Where else did he touch you? What exactly did he do? How long did he do that? What were you wearing? Are you dating him? Did he turn you on?
During his meeting with Jane, Rick Holland left the room to go and consult with John MacArthur. Then he came back with the ruling (see below):
Rick tells me that I need to be disciplined for doing drugs, drinking alcohol and almost dancing. He said the consequence for breaking the rules is that I will be kicked out of the college. He is angry at me for going to the police and the doctor. I should have let the church handle this without outside interference. He tells me not to tell anyone else, not my fellow classmates, not my teachers, not anyone at church.
“You are ruining that young man’s life!” He says.
He tells me I have to go to the police and drop the charges or I will be brought in front of the church to be disciplined. I don’t drop the charges. Not that it matters. The police interviewed my rapist and all the “friends” who were there and ruled it a “he-said, she-said” incident that can’t be proven either way.
After all of this happened, Jane finally got to go home with her parents for a few days. While there, she received a phone call from Rick Holland. He told Jane that in order for her to finish her senior year at TMC, she must agree to certain stipulations. He asked her to return campus and come to his office, which she agreed to do.
Here is the rest of Jane's testimony from Marci's Do You See Me Now? post.
I am standing outside the door to Rick’s office. I take a deep breath and feel confident that I am strong enough to do whatever it is that he asks me to do. I open the door and am shocked to see the stranger sitting there. I am starting to shake and sweat. Rick asks me to sit down by my rapist. Rick speaks for the rapist.
“He has admitted to everything he has done. He has acknowledged his sin and that this relationship was not consensual and he has repented. Look at him, he is crying.”
I don’t want to look at him but I do. I feel panicked sitting this close to him. I am wondering why I have to be present if it has become clear that I am innocent. Why wasn’t I immediately reinstated in school?
“Now it is your turn to apologize.”
I am not hearing right. I think that Rick Holland has just asked me to apologize to my rapist.
“Apologize for what?” I ask.
Rick says something about apologizing for the dress I was wearing at the bar and for drinking alcohol. He says I caused this young man to stumble, and he is incensed that I have not dropped the charges with the police. He says he has been talking to Joe and Sandra and my RD and they all say that my story keeps changing. I wonder why they are all allowed to talk about it but I am not. If I am to be reinstated in the school I must agree to weekly counseling with Rick and the stranger. I am told that the stranger and I have committed this sin together and therefore we must work through it together. I must agree to sit next to the stranger in church every week.
I don’t know where to begin. Do I start with the fact that I didn’t put that dress on or how my story isn’t changing, I am just remembering more things? I feel confused and angry. I am yelling. I hear more accusations coming out of Rick’s mouth. I am not submissive. I don’t trust the men that God has put over me. I am rebellious. He is angry and I cannot keep up with all of the attacks on my character that are flying out of his mouth. I am kicked out of school. I have less than twenty-four hours to get my things out of my room and get out. If I show up on campus, I will be arrested. They are changing my three years of earned college credits from A’s to F’s. I have flunked out of college.
It is 2008. I am still getting Facebook messages and emails from people I know at Master’s College calling me to repentance. They are rebuking me and quoting Scriptures about immorality and fornication. I know the narrative now. They have been told that I was sleeping around and was kicked out for drinking and carousing. They know my character and yet still assume it is true. Only one person from that whole community believes me—my roommate from Junior year.
It is 2017. I have told a few people over the years about what happened to me, but mostly I want to move on and live my life and forget. I can’t forget. I am trying to get my graduate degree, but on paper I failed three years of college and flunked out. I had to relive this nightmare trying to get my undergraduate Psychology degree, and now again applying for graduate school. Every time I work with rape victims, I relive my own trauma. I realize that I cannot move on until I bring this darkness into the light—even if it helps just one person—even if that person is me.
I am 32 years old and I am taking my life back. My name is Jane. Do you see me?
Some of you may be wondering… Who is Rick Holland? We will do our best to enlighten you and explain why we believe that what Jane shared in all likelihood is accurate.
Rick Holland, who spent 25 years at Grace Community Church, became Senior Pastor of Mission Road Bible Church in Prairie Village, Kansas just over six years ago. Here is his bio from the church website.
Rick failed to mention in his bio that he was very involved in putting together the Resolved conferences that took place from 2005 through 2012. He recorded a short video announcing his transition to Mission Road Bible Church and promoting the 2012 Resolved conference. When it became known that the Resolved conferences were coming to an end, I wrote a post entitled Resolved 2012 – That's a Wrap!
The featured speakers at the 2012 event included: John MacArthur, Al Mohler, Steve Lawson, C.J. Mahaney, Rick Holland, Jonathan Rourke and a few others. Some of them spoke at every single Resolved Conference. One of them was C.J. Mahaney.
As an aside, it was at the final Resolved Conference that Mahaney did his scorecard during a panel discussion in which he brown-nosed John MacArthur and proclaimed that he believes Al Mohler is "the smartest man on the planet".
At the 2009 Resolved Conference, Rick Holland introduced C.J. Mahaney and recognized him for speaking at the conference five years in a row. During his talk Rick provided detailed information (in the video below) about how he sought out Mahaney. Rick's remarks about C.J. begin at the 1:45 mark.
Since the first Resolved Conference took place in the summer of 2005 and involved a great deal of planning, Rick Holland probably reached out to Mahaney in late 2004 / early 2005 (around the time that C.J.'s book Humility: True Greatness was published).
What is significant to us is that Rick Holland and C.J. Mahaney became good friends the year before Jane was raped. We'll get back to that…
When Dee and I had been blogging for just a short time, a former member of the church where C.J. Mahaney served as Senior Pastor (Covenant Life – CLC) reached out to us and wanted to meet. She was traveling through North Carolina, and we agreed to join her for lunch at the Billy Graham Library in Charlotte. It was an experience Dee and I will never forget. Pam informed us that her two year old daughter had been molested by a 15 year old male babysitter who was also a member of Covenant Life Church.
Fortunately, Pam quickly realized what had happened to her daughter and contacted the police. The pastors at CLC were not at all pleased that she had involved the authorities. That's not how these things were handled at their church. Everything was dealt with in house. At one point a meeting was held between the teenage molester and Pam's two year old daughter. The purpose of the meeting was reconciliation. Pam described how her toddler cowered under a chair during the extremely awkward meeting. We soon discovered that this was the modus operandi at Mahaney's church (CLC).
That sounded eerily similar to the actions Rick Holland took as College Pastor at Grace Community Church. Rick asked Jane to come to the church (without making her aware of what was about to take place). Jane was shown into Rick's office, and he requested that she sit beside her rapist! The purpose of the meeting was reconciliation, with both parties being asked to apologize. Did Rick Holland receive any coaching from C.J. Mahaney regarding this matter? After all, Rick has a tremendous amount of respect for C.J. back then and apparently still does.
After the eight-year run of Resolved, Rick Holland planned another conference called Anchored, which took place in 2014. And guess who was asked to come and speak… Take a look below.
The following year, Rick was invited to speak at Sovereign Grace Church in Louisville, where C.J. Mahaney serves as Senior Pastor. Todd Wilhelm published a post about Rick's appearance in Louisville entitled Rick Holland Joins the Hall of Shame. Please take the time to read this excellent article.
Here is an excerpt from Todd's post (see screen shot below):
An astute commenter, Dave A A, shared the following just as I was starting this post.
On Sunday the 24th, Rick Holland, who is accused of doing the unbiblical counseling in this case, sermonized at the church of Eric Davis, who wrote the 2 most recent Cripplegate articles. The sermon topic? A believer’s response to difficulty.
Seems to me a bit like a CJ sermon, but I can’t bear to listen to sermons online.
If anyone cares to listen and summarize, it may be interesting. Anyhoo– we can safely assume the Davis articles are the official response (likely the only response) of Holland since they’ve been together for the weekend.
BTW — not sure if anyone mentioned the 2nd Cripplegate article by Clint Archer, who likens incorrect addressing of sin in the church to John McEnroe temper tantrums. This is undoubtably an unofficial Graceless2U response to the accusations, just like the 1st “How to Kill Your Neighbor” one.
You can listen to Rick's message entitled A Believer's Response to Difficulties here.
Yesterday Eric Davis, who pastors the church where Rick just spoke, wrote a response to the "Do You See Me?" post, which was published on The Cripplegate website. For those not familiar with this blog (that is very closely affiliated with John MacArthur and The Master's Seminary), you might want to watch this video, which was featured on The Master's Seminary website.
Here is the crux of Eric's post: (see screen shot below)
I kept waiting for this 'former employee of TMU' to provide some information that would contradict Jane's version of what occurred, but all he shared were hollow words. And just today Eric Davis wrote another post entitled Smear Campaigns vs Soul Care. I am reminded of that quote from Hamlet, which I am altering just a tad…
Eric [and others affiliated with TMU/TMS] doth protest too much, methinks.
Hopefully, you now have a better understanding of who Rick Holland is as well as whom he regards as his close friends. Given that his friendship with C.J. Mahaney began before the incident with Jane took place and knowing the hyper-control C.J. exercised in running CLC, it is extremely easy for us to imagine the scenarios described in Do You See Me?